Curses

There are definitely things we inheritely do because of our family/genetics. However I strongly believe this does not have to be our destiny. If we sit idly by and watch our life follow the patterns of which we are disgusted by it will inevitably remain in that course. If you want your life to change to a different track you have to fight like hell to do it. Although we may have a natural course-it can still be changed.

I myself am not going to end up a miserable SELFISH overweight diabetic who has watched their life go by and not seen all the happiness possible. I will focus on the good and embrace each moment I am in. I choose this because when I look at my family-my mothers side especially. I see these negative things. I try not to focus on them but they are very prevalent

Before I met Tim I had dated all manner of male scum. Some really bad some not so bad-but no great men. Why? Who knows. My guess is it comes down to self worth. Before Tim I had very little. When I met him I was on an upswing, but still pretty low on self-worth. I didn't think I deserved a guy as good as him. He was so kind, cute, a perfect gentleman, and strong in the church. How could I have a guy like that? But I thought he was cute and let him know I was interested. He was shocked but also interested. The more we dated the more embarrassed I got of who I was. The more I wanted to change for the better. He didn't' want me to change-most of the things I wanted to change were inside personal things he couldn't notice.
I'm glad he gave me a chance. He is helping me continue what I started on my own to-slowly become the person I want to be-and keeping me away from my family curse.